Tired

So I am wondering what the point of my life is today. Having zero interest in being married, having kids and with work which is becoming unchallenging, tedious and draining. I feel like I am just living for the 'next thing'. Dinner with friends (whom I am truly blessed with), a massage, a concert, a play, a holiday, the next relationship, the same mistakes. The simple pleasures and empty spaces in between just so devoid of energy – emotional or otherwise. I am overwhelmed with this bone deep tiredness pervading every cell of me that constantly emits this deep, silent, groan.

Just so fucking tired.